Reward - July 12, 2009

I dreamed I saw a small to medium sized yellow dog and I knew he was missing. There was a $5,000 reward for him and I chased him but he wouldn't let me catch him. I followed him for a long time and kept him from running in the street and chased him off the railroad tracks.

He finally came to a house and the people were so happy to see him that they gave me the $5,000 reward money. I wanted to keep it so bad, but I said, "I didn't really find him. I really only followed him home and kept him away from cars and trains. He was coming home the whole time."

I don't know if they still let me have the money or not, but I remember handing it back to them.

In another dream my daughter and I both went to high school together. We were getting ready for school and my dad was there, talking to us. I looked in the mirror and realized I had mascara on my face and I had to fix it and then fix my powder and base, but we were going to miss our first class. I didn't know if my dad would be mad at me or not.

Bathtub - July 9, 2009

I dreamed I was taking a bath and my aunt came in and got in with me. Her bright red hair had gone to her natural gray/white and I thought it looked so much better. She bonked her head on the faucet and I was worried about her. We wore clothing in the tub, like swimming suits.

Green Jello - July 8, 2009

I dreamed I was walking through the park, eating green jello jigglers. I was on the phone with my friend, Janet. I was telling her that I didn't know if I was pregnant anymore because it seems like the baby wasn't growing. I said I knew I was pregnant because I did a home pregnancy test and I went to the doctor, too. But it had been a long time and it seems like I would have had the baby by now. I said I was pregnant, but maybe I wasn't anymore. She agreed. Then I walked right through a sprinkler and past a row of bathrooms. I said, "There's sure a lot of bathrooms here." and someone said, "Yes, gobs."

Happy Fourth of July! - July 4, 2009

I dreamed my friend Sharon was sitting in a lawn chair in my backyard. She brought two young women with her and they were all sitting there and so was I. I started telling them how the guy across the street (alley) came to my backdoor one night around 1 am and insisted I let him in, telling me I had to because "somebody was at the door". He was drunk. (This really happened about maybe three years ago or so.)

I said the guy was a douche bag and then the young women told me that he was their dad and that Sharon had left her husband and was living with him. I couldn't believe my ears. Just then the girls went into my house and went into my bathroom. I got worried about them being in my house alone for so long because I have a lot valuable jewelry in here, so I went into the house and opened the bathroom door to see what they were doing.

I felt anxious and worried. I don't like people in my house without me and I didn't know them.

Poodleville - June 1, 2009

I had a massive amount of dreams last night. I dreamed I was walking with some people, including my daughter and my little dog, and Jack was not on a leash. He ran off across a huge green yard, about an acre or two wide. I yelled at the top of my lungs for my daughter to get him and she tried, but I got him first.

When I did, three standard sized black poodles rushed up to us and started sniffing him. I jumped down on the ground to protect him in case they were mean and just then another huge dog showed up. I was afraid they were going to hurt Jack so I was holding him, trying to struggle to my feet while still protecting him, all the while thinking I could be attacked, especially by the huge dog. I wondered if I would get bitten in the face.

In another dream Ric was there and he was dating women. I was deeply hurt and I couldn't stand to see it. The dream was long and drawn out and seemed to go on in infinite misery, but I can't seem to remember any of the other details now. The gist of it was that he was interested in other women and I was hurt to the core.

In another dream I worked for the crappy attorneys again. I was trying to organize the office and the woman attorney's house. I was having a hard time cleaning things up and I made a pile of completed projects and announced to her that that would be where I would be putting them. I had a "take charge" attitude because I didn't care how she felt about it and I was only going to be there temporarily anyway.

I ran across two photographs of her relatives and I went to find her and give them to her. Another woman who was visiting at her house tried to stop me and said, "Why are you being so rude and interrupting us?" and I said, "It's absolutely none of your concern. I am here to give her some pictures that I believe she would like to have." I brushed past her and handed them to the attorney, who took them and smiled.

Oh Baby - June 30, 2009

I dreamed I was holding a baby again, and just delighting in her. I was cuddling with her and cooing and talking to her. I remember saying, "Do you want a cookie?" even though she was way too little for cookies. She was smiling and laughing and a complete joy. I loved her.

In another dream I lived in a big unfamiliar city. I wanted to go to the mall but I was afraid I would get lost. I walked there and then went inside. I looked around and tried to memorize which door I was at because I knew I could easily go out the wrong door and head the wrong way and be completely lost. I decided to just go back home and try it again another day. I decided to go just a little bit farther each day. My exact thought was, "Baby steps."

In another dream I went to the neighbor's house (a dream neighbor) and when I left I slipped out the back door. I knew I left it unlocked and hoped they would notice and lock it back up. I think I had been at a function in the backyard and went inside to the little-used extra back door to get through to the side and head home. I walked home through a big field. A bunch of boys came toward me but I just kept walking, even though I was all alone. I walked right through the center of them.

Mennonites! Run! - June 29, 2009

I dreamed I was walking down a country road with my friend, Jan. I suddenly saw a bunch of people were walking toward us, all dressed the same. I yelled, "Oh my gosh! It's the Mennonites! Run!" For some reason we were terrified of the Mennonites, haha.

In another dream I was trying to get ready for the day and I just couldn't. Every time I thought I was ready I realized I had just one more thing to do before I would be ready. It was anxiety.

In another dream it was Halloween and people were coming to the door. Some girl showed us a brown miniature clock and my mom loved it. I said, "Don't you remember that I have a bunch of miniature blocks in two display cases by my front door?" She didn't seem to remember.